Chrissy Teigen shares photo of herself curled up on the couch after losing son Jack

Chrissy Teigen shared a heartbreaking photo capturing her in the days after losing son Jack as she posted in honor of Pregnancy Loss Awareness Month.

On Saturday, the 35-year-old model shared a photo on Instagram in which she was seen curled up on the couch as she attempted to test taste food with her cookbook co-author and close friend Adeena Sussman.

‘Pregnancy loss awareness week you say?? I know. I feel like I never let you forget it, either,’ Chrissy wrote in her emotional caption.

‘But I was going through BTS of cookbook making with @adeenasussman and came across this photo, taken soon after losing our little jack,’ she continued.

In the photo, Teigen was seen leaning against a pillow wrapped in a blanket with two bowls of partially-eaten food on the couch beside her. Adeena was clad in an apron as she sat next to Chrissy and held a large serving bowl and tongs.

The television personality and the Israeli-American chef released their third cookbook Cravings: All Together: Recipes to Love on October 12.

Teigen has previously stated that working on the cookbook ‘quite literally saved’ her after losing her baby.

In her Saturday photo, Chrissy continued, ‘as I’ve said before, I absolutely threw myself into writing, quickly, to distract from the trauma, the pain, the grief.

‘But not all days were productive. Many were…this. Days I felt suctioned to the couch with barely an appetite to even taste our recipes.

‘It was during this time that i truly believed Adeena was sent by god herself. When I tell your this book saved me, i only kind of mean that. It was Adeena. Love u guys. X’

October marks Pregnancy Loss Awareness Month. The 15th of the month also marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

In 2016, Teigen invited Sussman to live with her and her husband John Legend for several months while the two worked on their first cookbook Cravings: Recipes for All the Food You Want to Eat.

Though Adeena lives full-time in Israel, she moved in with Chrissy twice more to complete their 2018 cookbook Cravings: Recipes for All the Food You Want to Eat as well as their latest release.

Sussman told The Boca Raton Observer, ‘Chrissy and I cook all of the food together, spending our days and nights brainstorming, riffing and hitting the kitchen to come up with a perfect recipe, no matter how many times it takes.’

Adeena, who the supermodel has referred to as ‘her other everything,’ was by Chrissy’s side last October when she suffered her tragic loss.

Last month, Chrissy shared images of herself cooking with Adeena as well as her daughter Luna, five. In the caption, she wrote: ‘I don’t know what I would have done without this woman in my home one year ago. I really f*cking love what we have created together, my work wife.’

On September 28, Chrissy mourned the loss of Jack one year after his passing.

She shared an emotional snap from the hospital room with John.

She accompanied the post with a tribute which read: ‘and to the son we almost had. a year ago you gave me the greatest pain I could ever imagine to show me I could survive anything, even if I didn’t want to.

‘i didn’t get to take care of you but you came and went to get me to love myself and take care of myself because our bodies are precious and life is a miracle. they told me it would get easier but yeah, that hasn’t started yet. mom and dad love you forever.’

Chrissy was shown laying in the hospital bed with tears running down her face as the 42-year-old musician consoled her.

On September 30, 2020 Teigen took to Instagram to announce that she and John had lost their baby, days after she was admitted to the hospital with severe bleeding.

The model shared the heartbreaking news with a lengthy post and series of images on social media, saying their little boy, Jack, had died following ‘so many complications’.

Chrissy wrote in her post: ‘We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough’.

The devastating post included five black and white photos taken at the hospital, showing Chrissy crying on her bed as well as a shot showing her and John cradling their son.

Days prior to her tragic announcement, Chrissy, who conceived Luna and son Miles, three, through IVF with John revealed she was on ‘serious bed rest’ due to bleeding and said she was ‘about halfway through her pregnancy’, which is around 20 – 24 weeks. A stillbirth is when a baby is born dead at 24 weeks or later.

In a heartbreaking addition to the post, Chrissy revealed that ‘for some reason’ she and John had begun calling their unborn baby boy, Jack despite only naming their other kids after they were born.

She continued: ‘We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever…

‘To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you…

‘Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience.’

Losing a baby past 24 weeks is a stillbirth rather than a miscarriage. If a baby dies before 24 completed weeks, it’s known as a miscarriage or late fetal loss.